My last post was 2018 naming our house Tarragon. That didn't stick. I've yet to name it. How have you been? This year is kind of survival of the fittest, yeah? I have been busy. I had another baby! Surprise! It was a surprise for literally everyone. I barked and cried about not being able to have kids for so long and then all of a sudden I felt pregnant, called the doctor, couldn't find a heartbeat, discussed sack removal, found a heartbeat, quarantined for months, searched far and wide for toilet paper, had a pretty normal pregnancy, Quincy was run over, Quincy had to be put down, diagnosed with gestational diabetes, high blood pressure, induced two weeks early, and now I am up all night with a very healthy little boy. That pretty much sums up my year to date.
I was a surprise for my parents. They were in their mid 40s when I born. I heard a lot of stories about it. One of my sisters was married the week I was born. I am thankful that Blair will have a sibling close in age to grow up with. I admit the first couple of weeks have been difficult. She has been craving more and more attention. Understandable. Everyone has lived and breathed her every step over the course of the last 3 years. I just pray she will quickly understand that I have enough love for both her and her brother. I also pray she will love her bed again and stay in it... I do love her hot breath in my face in the morning asking me why daddy had to go to work.
If I had to look back on the past couple of years and wonder how I was ever able to naturally conceived the only real answer I can give you is that I gave it to God and let him guide me. Chad and I prayed long and hard about quitting our jobs and moving home. I really think that leaving our jobs and the stress that came with them made the most difference. I felt such a burden lifted and a freedom that I had never felt before. Having Blair showed me that family is so much more important than traveling and work. Don't get me wrong, I have hundreds of thousands of sky miles that I am dying to use now but we will use those on family vacations that we will remember for years to come post-covid.
I hope to write more and I hope that you will read it. I don't have a specific topic to cover as I am all over the place with everything right now. It's a transitional stage for me that I hope to stealthily navigate and come out on top. The bottom will be fine as long as there is a hot cup of coffee there waiting on me. It's its iced I am down for that too.
Until next time,
Lily
